Being refined...

Hebrews 12:7-8,11

God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline? But if you are without discipline, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate children and not sons… All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.

Personal Reflection

As I was driving my daughter to school this morning and we spoke of the trials that have befallen our family in the last few years.  It is scary to think that sometimes it takes trials to keep us near his feet, that if we were left to ourselves we would be so far from him because our pride and self-righteousness would fill our heads and his image would be erased.  

Thank you Heavenly Father for the life you have chosen for me, because I do realize that without these blessings we've experienced through the trials in our lives, it may have been harder to see you and need you as I do right now.  I am not begging for more :), but I trust in your plans for my life and know that through these trials, you are refining us and will never leave us nor forsake us.  

Psalm 37: 23 - 24(New Living Translation)

The steps of the godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives. 24 Though they stumble, they will not fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand. 

Dear heavenly Father, thank you for your grace. Every morning I get consumed about how I may disappoint you during the day, but because of your love and mercy I know that you will hold me up when I falter. Please direct my steps today and help me muzzle my mouth if there are no encouraging words I can utter.

New Year Resolutions

I woke up knowing that I had  a dream about you, but it bothers me that I cannot remember what it was about.  I know in it you were smiling and I have tried all day to remember the contents of the dream but my mind is failing me or maybe that is how it is supposed to be.  I miss you so very much!

I am scared to make any New Year resolutions, because I somehow feel like, God will do what God intends to do, and so why worry or plan!

I so wanted you to be here with us now, doing all the fun stuff you wanted to do, but no, Heaven had to have you sooner.  Several times a day, I have to remind myself that you are truly gone and then a deep hurt overcomes me.  It hurts and nothing comes close to describing the pain.  Oh how it aches!

I love you baby girl, and I know that God is watching out for us until we see each other again.  This past Christmas was a blur, and I guess it will never be the same.  Days are strange and my mind can't seem to focus much on anything.

During grief counseling, we are encouraged not to live in the past, but how do you go on when part of you is left behind?

God, please forgive me for sounding so miserably discouraged, I just miss her so! Father God, please know that I am forever grateful for the opportunity to have been a mother to such a wonderful daughter.  Please give her a hug from all of us!

We miss you !

This blog is dedicated to our wonderful daughter, sister and friend-to-many, who miss her terribly since she left to be with the Lord on April 10th, 2012. Her 2-year fight with Leukemia was not an easy one, but she faced each day with a smile. Not an hour goes by without us thinking of her. Your smile is forever etched on our hearts, baby girl!

Kganya's Kause was founded by Kganya's school mates, friends and family to make a difference in the lives of youth by supporting local charities. The foundation was inspired by Kganya's life and fight with Leukemia, and her aim to live life to the full each day. Her motto was:'CARPE DIEM' ! Her love for God, for her family and friends and her cats was evident in her ever-smiling face even when she faced adversity.

May her memory never depart our lives, may her smile bring joy to your hearts and may her love for everything God be a testament to many.