I woke up knowing that I had a dream about you, but it bothers me that I cannot remember what it was about. I know in it you were smiling and I have tried all day to remember the contents of the dream but my mind is failing me or maybe that is how it is supposed to be. I miss you so very much!
I am scared to make any New Year resolutions, because I somehow feel like, God will do what God intends to do, and so why worry or plan!
I so wanted you to be here with us now, doing all the fun stuff you wanted to do, but no, Heaven had to have you sooner. Several times a day, I have to remind myself that you are truly gone and then a deep hurt overcomes me. It hurts and nothing comes close to describing the pain. Oh how it aches!
I love you baby girl, and I know that God is watching out for us until we see each other again. This past Christmas was a blur, and I guess it will never be the same. Days are strange and my mind can't seem to focus much on anything.
During grief counseling, we are encouraged not to live in the past, but how do you go on when part of you is left behind?
God, please forgive me for sounding so miserably discouraged, I just miss her so! Father God, please know that I am forever grateful for the opportunity to have been a mother to such a wonderful daughter. Please give her a hug from all of us!
